Monday, 30 December 2013


  I've been with my family for the past few days so haven't had a chance to write anything but I've managed to find a few minutes alone to write this brief, overdue Christmassy post - so yeah, MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope you've all had a fab one with lots of food, family and jesus if that's ya thing.
  I certainly had a great one - after a quiet day with my immediate family, we headed up to my grandma's for our annual boxing day get-together.  It's been exhausting (my younger cousins are all amazing but a hand-full to say the least!) but very very lovely.
  I'd write more but I've just been called to eat, so here are a few pics before I go!

hat - no idea hahaha
top - primark
skirt - topshop
tights - m and s
socks - h & m
boots - h & m

 that's all from me, but byee and I hope you enjoy the rest of your festivities!

matilda xxxxx

Sunday, 8 December 2013

facing west

// coat - gap // sweatshirt - my mum got it in australia in the 90s do idek haha // shirt - thifted // leggings - zara // socks - topshop // boots - h&m //

A few weeks ago my family and I went for a very windy walk along what I think is Shoreham beach. My priority was comfort and warmth, but I actually quite like this admittedly simple outfit! 
I've been having an odd mixture of amazing days and absolutely shit ones at the moment - there hasn't been any inbetweens, and I'm not sure whether it is a good thing or bad thing. The good ones have been great - everything's been so Christmassy which I love and I've spent a lot of time with friends, but also a lot of time alone. I've had a bit of an absence of any sort of drive or motivation in my academic work which has left for rather a lot of time for thinking, which is not always a good thing.
 A few times recently something's happened, and I've had way too much time to ponder (that's an understatement) over it. Like, recently I had the sad realisation that someone I care a huge deal about (again, an understatement) could be slipping out of my life, which is not something that I've ever anticipated when it comes to this person. There are too many barriers between us, and too much going on in our lives to keep up with each other. It's sad, and caused many a tear this week. I don't know how to fix it and if I can even fix it.
On another upsetting note, I got the sad news a little while ago that my amazing great-great aunt Olivia had passed away. She was an incredibly inspirational woman, and luckily had a long long life (96 years) and wasn't exactly lazy when it came to life achievements... All I will say is that her obituary was in the Telegraph (!) and I'd really recommend having a look if you're interested. I feel extremely honoured to have known her and to be able to call her family.

 Another sad death is that of Nelson Mandela. He was obviously an incredible man, and I admire him immensely. Last night I went to see my mum in her choir and as their encore, they got the entire 600 strong audience to stand up and join in/dance as they sung Nelson Mandela by the Specials, which was an amazing few minutes. I'm in the teen version on the choir and here's a snippet of us performing the same song at a recent gig,with our sister choir! As the camera pans across I'm the girl on the left wearing a tartan shirt and a skirt.

Anyway, I hope you're all well and are getting excited for Christmas - I can't wait!

I also tried my first ever pop tart today and it was pretty good, even if it does just taste of sugar and dough!

Also I'm seeing the Vaccines on thursday and I'm so. fucking. excited

That's pretty much it from me today, so byeee

 Mattie xxxx

Saturday, 30 November 2013

meeting danisnotonfire @ google

It just occurred to me that I hadn't told you guys about my trip up to google last week, so I thought I'd write a bit of a post! 

Basically through my mum's work, I was lucky enough to get the opportunity to go with my friends Ava and Charlie to go and interview Dan, an extremely popular British youtuber. We were part of a conference at the GoogleHQ aimed at cultural organisations and companies and to do with the internet and things. Our session (we were doing the interview as part of a live panel) was about what these organisations can learn from youtube and someone like Dan, as well as young people. We had a Q&A at the end I got a microphone clipped onto my top which was pretty awesome.

To show the audience who Dan is, we watched a video of his with him, which was a bit of an odd experience! It was also nice to see a youtuber being taken so seriously by such influential, amazing people. 

Afterwards we went to have pictures with him, and he ended up sitting and chatting with us about literally everything you could think of (including grandmas, tumblr themes and his radio show) for literally about an hour, which was amazing as he had multiple opportunities to leave, but he didn't!  
He was basically just really lovely (and very very tall) and I'm eternally grateful I got to do this - thank you Culture24! 

he asked how to spell my name (which starts with an 'm') and proceeded to write an 'e'... this is his reaction haha

I was on my tiptoes in this and he was bending down... oh dear

The google building was insane by the way - so amazing and random, but I'd love to work there! In the canteen FREE AMAZING FOOD as well - obviously the most important part of the day. 

We also went to Byron to eat afterwards (not with Dan haha) and it was so delicious - I didn't manage to take any pictures, but I will visit again soon! So good omg I can't even

also by the end of this he knew my name

i repeat - he knew

Saturday, 23 November 2013

some disposables for your enjoyment

In June this year, me and my friends Charlotte, Isy, Lydia, Rosie, Elisabeth and Megan went to the New Forest for our Duke of Edinburgh expedition. If you're not from the UK it's basically a scheme to get teenagers involved in the community and doing wholesome activities - you spend 6 months doing either voluntary work, practising a skill (mine was singing in a choir, for example) or taking part in sport and then three months doing the remaining options. You then train for and plan an expedition and go on it, with only maps and compasses for help. We did ours in the New Forest, and being the lazy peep I am, I've only just managed to get my pictures developed! 
They turned out pretty nicely,  so I thought I'd share them with you (but please excuse my fingers in so many of these, I don't know what happened!) 

From top left - Charlotte, me, Megan, Isy, Lydia, Rosie and Elisabeth. 
lydia being a whale 
charlotte the mole

This was such an amazing weekend with amazing people and I miss it, with the exception of the exhaustion, sweatiness and squabbles over map readings haha:) 

Mattie xxx

**all disposables**

Monday, 11 November 2013

jake bugg @ the brighton centre: what I wore

So on the 22nd of October I went and saw one of my all time favourite musicians, Jake Bugg, live at the Brighton Centre. I'll be doing a separate review post but here's what I wore! My shoes and socks didn't come up very well on camera in this light (it was taken at night) so I've added a picture of the same combination from another outfit post that you will have already seen by the time this is up.
The only working camera I have at the moment is my mum's, and she refused to unplug her phone whilst taking the pictures, hence the awful background!

shirt: thrifted/to be worn again
shorts: to be worn again/ thrifted 
boots: h&m 
socks: topshop 
bag: primark
skull top: a tiny nameless shop in my town, but you can get it at camden market
calvinball badge: ebay 
cat brooch: gift shop in brighton 
sticker: tiger 
evil eye earring (worn as brooch): kukee
all other earrings: claire's accessories (!)

Annoyingly in all the Jake Bugg excitement my cat brooch which I ADORED came off at some point in the gig and I can't find it:'( 

 I've recently been loving plaid shirts worn on top of t-shirts and shorts- they're so easy and good for layering! They have some great second hand /vintage ones in the lanes (in Brighton) if you're ever down this was, I recommend keeping an eye out! 

What have you guys been liking (clothes-wise, for Autumn) recently? Leave a comment, I'd love to know!

Matilda xxx

Monday, 4 November 2013

pushing up daisies

                                                           Dress (under top) - H&M 
                                                                    Top - H&M
                                                                   Hoody - H&M
                                                             Leather Jacket - thrifted
                                                                     Ring - H&M
                                                                    Boots - H&M
                                                           Feather Earring - Claire's (!)
                                                         Socks (gold metallic) - Topshop 

           (woops I'm basically a walking H&M advertisement, wearing ALL their clothes ahahah)

 A few days ago I took a break from my homework (tumblring - I am the procrastination queen) and went on a little trip to a local national trust place near my village for lunch. It was really nice and we tried out my sister's new instax mini, which I've fallen in love with. 
 I hope the UK lot of you all survived St. Jude, by the way - it seemed not too bad from my house but I found out a 14 year old boy drowned at one of my local beaches. This really shook me up as we'd been at the neighbouring beach a few hours previously for a walk and saw the rough conditions first hand, so it was scary to know what he would have gone through and the conditions his last few minutes were. 
 On a slightly cheerier note, I hope you all had a good halloween! I went to a party on Tuesday, and took a gazillion photos beforehand with Isy and Cait. Is was a jester and Caitlin a goth type thing - she has naturally extremely light blonde, insanely curly hair which she straitened and spray dyed black, which was weird to see! I just went for a zombie/vampire look - basically, I left it last minute, and could only find a cloak... 

The party was great, but I ended up telling someone about my blog - I'm praying they were too drunk to remember! We also went to another party, where you had to dress up with something that starts with the first letter of your name, so I went for a (door) mat. (MATilda!) My friend has an amazing camera and she took lots of photos, so when she sends them to me I'll post them! 

Today was the first day back to school after half term, and went surprisingly quickly, which is good  - I can't wait for the XFM Winter Wonderland and everything Christmassy! For those of you who read my last post - I finally managed to get some downstairs tickets for the festival, which is AMAZING because Freddie Cowan is god and now he'll be up close. My friend wants us to take the day off - I can't but hopefully we'll still be somewhere near the front!

I hope you've all had a good few days, have you done anything fun for halloween? 

Matilda xxx

*title is a song by Jay Jay Pistolet - Justin from the Vaccines' old solo stage name. you should check it out, it is beaut!*

Friday, 1 November 2013

run your fingers through my soul

A little while ago me and Isy went to Brighton to hunt me down some autumn clothes. It was a fairly successful trip, and I believe this is the first time I've bought any clothes for myself since JUNE so I was pretty proud, actually. I'll do a little haul for that but I'll show you two things I got - these metallic Topshop socks and this Urban Outfitters jumper. I have a little more to say about them both but I'll save it for the haul!
  I'm going off the look of my skater skirt having things tucked into it but I love it worn as a usual skirt which I haven't done out of school uniform since I was about eight!
 Apologies for the *'scuse me french* shitty phone camera quality...

 boots - h&m socks - topshop skirt - topshop jumper  - urban outfitters 
 One of my little sisters Lucy has just decided to get herself an Instax Mini, which I was also planning on getting, and has kindly agreed to lend it to me if I pay for any film I use. I was pretty happy with this as it saves me another £60 I don't have! The lovely Lexi from Lexi Likes recommended I buy a Diana Mini, which I really like the look of - I've wanted a film camera for S O  L O N G so I think I might have to start saving! (After I get myself a new digital camera, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S BROKEN THIS IS A BLOGGER'S WORST NIGHTMARE)

 My plans for half term being FULL of productivity have, as always, not become reality, and I'm starting to regret leaving 100% of my long list of homework to do for the last two days...

 On a cheerier note my mum and dad have started looking into Shepard's Huts for me - I may be moving into one of these in the garden, which would be amazing! I've also booked myself a ticket to the XFM Winter Wonderland, which is being headlined by one of my favourite ever bands, the Vaccines! I'm so excited - it'll be all christmassy, although I accidentally bought the wrong type - I got circle tickets not floor stalls (which are now sold out) and I'm scared of heights and will be alone - the friend I'm meant to be going with has floor tickets so we'll both be alone! If anyone has/knows of a spare floor ticket I could buy please let me know, and I'll <3 you forever!

 Hope you've all been having a good half term if you're from England, and if not then just a good week!

Matilda xxxx

*Title from my favourite Reef song, 'Place Your Hands'. I think this line is so beautiful!*

Monday, 21 October 2013

counting stars

Two weeks ago I was on work experience  at my local court house (which was amazing btw) but on my way in the rain on one day my camera got soaked without me realising which is extremely annoying as I'm sure you guys can imagine, which has meant I've had nothing to take pictures with other than my crappy phone camera for a whole like TWO WEEKS. 
 this usually would be okay but it's a bit gutting - in those two weeks I've seen Nina Nesbitt live which was great and really deserved some pictures, and I also went up to Bristol to visit one of my best friends up there. She and our friend Chloe were having a party which I went up for and I would've loved to take some pictures but my camera has no flash so you'll have to settle for a description - there was a big gazebo/marquee type thing which they covered in fairy lights, a big bell tent full of cushions and lights and then a camp fire with hay bales to sit on, candles and upturned cotton reels as tables. It was in a little communal wood/field where she lives, it literally felt like a tumblr/rookie scene! It was utterly perfect and everyone (I'd only met four people before including ruby and chloe) was really lovely:3 I did get some pictures from the next day though which shows some of the surroundings so here ya go.. 
with chloe on the train to bath
with Ruby clearing up the next day
I've also had a lot of revision to do recently - I had to make myself a little makeshift desk which actually turned out really pretty... Needless to say it has NOT stayed this tidy. 
I've worked out how to use my dad's scanner recently, so have been busy making myself a new banner/header and buttons/labels for the side of my blog. I loved making them; I'm useless with web design so this was a nice alternative (and an excuse to go sticker crazy). I've also been scanning in all sorts to post on tumblr/back up for safe keeping, like my 1/3 of the Howler set list Brent Mayes gave me ALMOST a whole year ago. I also found a bunch of collages/mood boards I made over a year ago that I though you might want a look at. 

the front of my scrap book

There was also a lovely moment on the train back, when, right at the start of my four hour journey, two girls (about uni age) sat opposite me and invited me to play cards with them! We taught each other different games, and then after one got off after an hour the other and I just talked about religion and life for another 45 minutes. It was only a simple thing to do but it was so lovely, and my day and mood were both infinitely better afterwards! 

I've actually got a haul and outfit post for y'all but due to the tragic death of my camera I have to retake a few of the pictures, but it will be with you soon! I also plan to do lots of posting during half term if I manage to motivate myself enough!

I'm seeing Jake Bugg tomorrow and I'm so excited oh my god! We're going straight down after school to start queueing, I can't wait! I should have a few pics after that as well so ja, see you guys soon! xxxx