Saturday, 22 November 2014

so i might have been away for a little while

It's been far far too long since the last time I posted something on this blog of mine. Time and time again I've sat down and tried to write something, but none of what I'd written really summed up quite how I was feeling and after such a long absence on here, I wanted my 'return' post to feel right. Usually I wouldn't post such a long explanation or whatever the hell this actually is but seeing as my blogging absence was a conscious decision instead of just being too busy I feel like I owe it to the occasional few of you who might have wondered where I've been... So yeah, here you go.

  I started blogging just over two years ago, and over time it became a big part of my life. I was suddenly connected to a whole community of lovely people that shared my interests, and the support and love that you guys sent my way made and makes me beyond happy. I discovered so many new passions and made some amazing blogging friends (you all know who you are!) (sorry for being non-existent in the comments section of your blog for a while)  and for this I feel eternally lucky!

 In the time between the start of my GCSE exams last May and now, however,  it feels like I've
grown up a whole lot, and I realized very early on in the summer that this blog wasn't quite keeping up with me. I wasn't happy with or proud of the content I was producing, and especially as the majority of my friends and family now knew about/read my blog (which was/is otherwise lovely, don't get me wrong!), I started feeling incredibly self conscious about what I was 'putting out there', and whether or not it was how I wanted to be represented. Blogging started providing me with more stress than it did happiness, which is the last thing that I wanted it to do, and so I decided to temporarily un-publish This is From Matilda just so that I could take a breather, think things over and just get my shit together, to be perfectly honest!

  It feels like it's been long, long 5 months, and recently I've been noticing more and more how much I miss the whole blogging community - both writing this blog and also reading all of yours, hence my reappearance! I'm not quite sure how this is all going to work (college, volunteering, moving house and work means that I have 0 free time) and I have no clue what to do in terms of all my old posts ( I might keep up a few of my favourites and remove the rest? Who knows!) but I do know that it feels incredibly good to be writing again, and I can't wait to start reading all of the blog posts of yours that I've been missing!

It's felt like therapy getting all of this off of my chest but I imagine that if you've been at the receiving end of my rambles it's been a little less gripping, so thank you if you've read this far... Basically, yeah. I'm back. Here's a flashback to when I had vaguely blue hair and there was some actual sun in England, to kick-start this new chapter of This is From Matilda... And as always, apologies for my cheesiness here. Some habits never die!



This black halter-neck (which you can't properly see due to black rucksack straps, apologies) is one of my most worn clothing pieces ever, along with these mom jeans - I picked up the jeans during an East End Thrift Store rummage during the summer, and are possibly my cheapskate self's proudest ever find as they only cost me a pound! They're not particularly flattering but are the comfiest jeans ever and make me feel like one of the cast of Friends, so all is well. Needless to say that outfits like these are a mere memory at the moment in England - I've spent the past month wrapped in blankets wearing 53826 layers, like a true Brit.

Photos courtesy of Roseanna Leach Photography, and DEFINITELY not from an outfit post that was to be posted way back in June. Incompetent? Me? Never...

I've missed you all a whole lot so feel free to update me on your life at the minute in the comments, and let me know how you are! Hopefully it won't be another 5 months until next time, and ta for reading. It feels good to be back!